I have been able to talk to Sean every day so far. This will change once BCT starts. He is doing well, but is bored and misses the kids (and me). Once he starts BCT that part will be easier because he won't have time to think about it much, he'll be busy all of the time.
I have also been asked many times over how I am doing. Just so you all know, I am just fine. It is actually harder when I constantly have people coming up to me with strained puppy dog faces asking how I'm doing, like they expect me to be utterly falling apart. Really? It has only been 6 days! I have 5 months or so to go. Lets save the tears and dramatics for at least a month or two, k? I do miss Sean, a lot, and this will be a difficult time. But I have so many good people around me, so many good family and friends I can call on. I'm really not worried. This decision for Sean to join the Army was not one we made lightly, and we knew that the only way to do this was with spiritual confirmation that what we were doing was right. Knowing that this is right makes this easier, and I know I can turn to the Lord when I need extra strength to get through the trying times. I have been given peace, a calm, knowing that even though I will miss Sean terribly, I will be absolutely fine. And we will be extremely excited to see him at his graduation!! (more info to come when I get it myself).
The hardest part about all of this so far, is the not knowing. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm slightly a control freak and like to know all the details of what is going on, I have to have to be able to plan things out. With this, there is so much unknown. When will Sean start BCT? When will graduation be? When can he call home? When will I know his address to write to him? We don't know exactly when AIT will start after BCT graduation. I dont' know when he'll find out what his first duty station will be or where. Some of it is aggravating to not know, some of it is like waiting for Christmas. I will be very excited to find out where we will be moving after Sean is all done with training!! Until then, any bets on where we'll go???
3 comments:
I am so glad you have friends and family to count on!
Texas or Oklahoma is my guess! No matter where we will make a family vacation out to it!
You are awesome Ashley. Thanks for the update.
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